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No, the title is not a kind of Meguca Meduka (tm) :iconmedukaplz: joke, I really mind it

I have told you (anyone who read my journal(s) before, thank you for spending some of your time :p) that recently, I decided to focus my previously half-assed-jack-of-all-trade skills to only one thing: writing. Months have passed until that decision, and I must say that writing is a similar, yet entirely different work than drawing, or other kinds of work.

First of all, writing requires a ton of concentration. I realized that some people could write anything that popped out from his head spontaneously, but that's not the case for me.
While I could write freely in non- narrative texts, I decide to keep everything in a nice, structured outline, and then proceed to fill it with texts.
And there's the tricky part lies. I usually create a plot-to-plot point outline, and they're still good in my early imagination. But when I jump to the real script, things turned out ugly. It's hard to make every character and actions to act and flow naturally, and the slowly the plot turned into a giant ball of mess the more I keep writing forward.

And that's the another hell. Writing is a huge job to do :iconorzplz:

While drawing, you can easily zoom out to see the whole picture of your works. In other side, zooming your Microsoft Word to 5% won't solve any of your problems at all (or is there any? lol)
My current work is at 20k++ words, and I'm now in a writer-block state. I just felt that things are already too messy for me to continue, but I can't find any good place to start redoing things. Meanwhile, the "to-edit" list already grown into a long list, and I guess I made a mistake of ignoring them until I find that I can't move anymore with the current chaos in script (I edited some, but the more I edit, the more I found something that I need to improve)
Okay, "So just move your ass and do the editing!", you say? Yeah, I know that. But in current state, for some reason I just feel that I need to rewrite most of the script from scratches. It's hard to find a middle ground of being idealist and realist in writing, as I always think that "This part sucks, I need to somehow made it to be better".

I know that grumbling won't bring me anywhere, but I just like to transfer some of my uneasy feelings to words, and then throw it away. Writing is a much more solitary work compared to drawing, and it's hard to share your anxiety at writing to other people. Once again, reading is also a much longer activity rather than appreciating pictures, so it's hard to make people to even read your works (Although I'm still not really confident in showing my writings to public, although I already did it in GENDAY, an event in my university)

Anyway, I'll end my complains here. Actually, there's also a big, serious problem that prevent me to keep moving forward: a health issue. But I guess I will not write a longer post than this current length >.<

In the end, there's no other way for me rather than keep my legs to move forward at any cost. I'll just keep one thing in my mind :

:iconcheerplz: :iconcheerplz: :iconcheerplz:

"One thing that will make you improve over time is an ability to acknowledge and realize if you're still sucks"
Why? So that you can keep your expectation balanced and realizes that you still have a plenty of room to improve yourself :)
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Hiya, it's been a while! Although I'm not sure about how many people that follow me (and how many that aren't my real life friends, lol), suddenly I have an urge to write and share some things here (despite of will there anybody that read this or not)...So...Here we go!

More than half a year without posting any image and journal, and I almost do no "serious" artworks at all. That was because...things was getting serious:

1. One of my game project won SquareEnix game idea competition and we had to complete the game in some months. Next month is the deadline.

2. I also made a team to compete at Vienetta, a VN competition, which is pretty fail actually...But I learned a lot of things, especially experiencing how to totally complete a project to the bitter end. Also it was my first time to be the main and only writer.

3. I am also in an urge to build my VN in Vienetta, mostly back from scratch. Rewriting is tough.

4. I still have some tasks at EVE Project, although the route which is in my responsibility is still...stuck. So, I tried my best to help EVE from artist shortage, and gladly, so far it works.

5. And I am also preparing to start the final-big-project which is planned to done in around two years (Final means it will be my last project in my university life). That will be a visual novel, and once again, I will fight as a writer and project leader >.<


That said, my job as an illustrator decreasing from time to time. Writing from the very beginning was my main interest even from I was a little kid, and Illustrating is a kind of other skill which I -need- to have. So, you won't see many activities in DA from me in the future. (not that I was very active before, though)

Despite of my decision to dedicate my free time for writing, I still have a drawing job to do. That is a call for my third group art book in Genshiken (my univ unit)...And the theme for the Artbook is...Winter! I love winter very much since it suits my overall mood, so I am aiming to do good things here!

The problem is, I am in the process of re-linearting two images, and so far I don't like my latest face style and proportion. I don't know if my drawings were this bad or my so called "art standard" that had been going higher. Either way, I guess I just need to study proportion and seek for drawing style once again.

I guess I was blabbering too much, so I will end this confide. See you guys again later :)
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I'm back.
Finally, it's holiday, after long period of crazy semester in my uni. I've been abandoning a lot of projects, and holiday, means I will just change my gear from university life to working life.

Ridiculously, I am pretty masochistic in accepting requests/work, so I accepted some deals that seems pretty impossible for the usual "me"

Okay, here's the deal.
- I have to create 4-5 full color+BG CG for an collective artbook, themed "Summer" in 2 weeks. That will be as much as my "proper" CG for this 2 year!
- I have to finish story concept for my team's VN project that had only reach half of the story, after some months.
- I have to do my jobs as assistant in my Comic circle.
- I have to seek for some money to plan my holiday to some tropical islands with friends.
- I have to seek idea if I want to participate in short KN competition that will begin shortly.
- etc etc

But, for some reason I am pretty confident in myself right now (which is pretty rare), so I hope this holiday will increase my knowledge and skill in many things.

I hope for your support from now on (if anybody reads this, lol)
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If you have meet these requirements :
- A digital artist with Anime Style.
- Have a pretty dark/mellow style.
- You're pretty skillful in your art.
- Have time to spend for.
- Dedicated to do a free, non commercial project.

We, EVE project, a running-fast indie VN developer need YOU.
We, EVE project, are in need of an artist for sprite artist and CG artist. The concept design has been done before, but you're free to alter the concept design with your own style.
We, EVE project, have been done a project before, titled "One Million Rupiah Girl". That's our first step in making even a much better Visual Novel, which is under the process of scripting and coding.

For more information, send me a notes :p
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Promo acara Genshiken nih, dateng ya!!! X3

When : 23 Desember 2010
Where : Campus Center Barat dan Lapangan Basket Institut Teknologi Bandung
Organizer : Genshiken ITB

Link : genesis-genshiken.blogspot.com…

Description
Genshiken, sebuah Unit Kegiatan Mahasiswa di ITB yang bergerak di bidang budaya visual modern seperti , menyelenggarakan acara besarnya yang kedua yaitu :

2nd Genshiken Exhibition Showbiz for Indonesian Society (GENESIS) 2010

Dalam GENESIS 2010, terdapat 3 acara utama yaitu:

Pameran
Ajang pameran karya anak-anak Genshiken dan karya anak-anak bangsa lainnya dalam bidang visual modern, seperti mangascan,fansubbing,game,ilustrasi,komik, dan berbagai macam hasil karya visual modern lainnya.
Workshop "How to Build Your Own Comic!"
Seiring dengan perkembangan dunia komik di Indonesia makin pesat, Genshiken bekerja sama dengan pihak Komikara , sebuah sekolah yang mengajarkan khusus untuk membuat komik, mengadakan workshop "How to Build Your Own Comic!".
Dalam workshop ini akan dihadirkan beberapa orang yang sudah berpengalaman dalam dunia komik untuk membagi ilmunya dengan para calon komikus.Diharapkan dengan adanya workshop ini akan membantu dunia perkomikan di Indonesia lebih maju.
Lomba
Lomba Yugi-Oh
Siapa yang tidak kenal dengan permainan kartu Yugi-oh? Permainan trading card yang sangat populer beberapa tahun lalu ini tidak pernah surut dengan penggemarnya. Jika anda termasuk salah satu penggemarnya , maka ujilah kemampuan anda dalam berduel dengan kartu-kartu yang anda miliki!
Lomba komik on the spot
Anda sudah ahli dalam membuat komik? Maka ujilah keahlian anda dengan mengikuti lomba komik on the spot! Disini, para peserta akan diuji keahliannya dalam membuat komik dengan waktu yang terbatas dan tema yang telah ditentukan. Jika anda merasa tertantang, ikutilah lomba komik on the spot GENESIS 2010!
Show Off Your Comic!
Bingung ingin mempublikasikan karya komik anda? Jangan khawatir karena dalam acara GENESIS 2010 kali ini Genshiken akan membantu anda dalam mempublikasikan karya anda. Karya komik anda akan dipajang di ruang pameran dan disaksikan oleh puluhan pengunjung. Jadi, segera kirimkan karya anda untuk dipajang di acara GENESIS!
Lomba Cosplay
Ingin tampil seperti karakter favorit anda? Tampilah pada acara GENESIS 2010! Anda akan tampil di depan puluhan pengunjung yang menyaksikan penampilan secara langsung. Segera daftarkan diri anda untuk  tampil pada acara GENESIS 2010!
Informasi lebih lengkap :
Kunjungi Page Genesis 2010 di facebook dan websitenya :
genesis-genshiken.blogspot.com…
atau
Gandhi Prakoso Nugroho
Kontak Person : 081514259748

Terima kasih.
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